A "wake up" moment!

On Friday night I had a "wake up" moment.  My son was playing in the final of the schools regional football and it was a horrible night.  The wind was howling, the rain chucking it down and they were getting hammered 3-0.  I'm not the giving up type but I said to my wife, if they go 4 down I'm heading to the car.  Then Ali scored, 3-1 half time.  Still they had a tough challenge on there hands.  Second half he lays on the second and scores the third - now we have a game.  They end up winning 7-4 but it was a tight game.  As I drove home the thought occurred to me that I'd given up when they were 3-0 down.  I didn't believe they'd come back against such a good side.  On reflection this demonstrated how crap my attitude had become in the last few months.
A change of attitude and approach is required.  For too long my posts have been more like a report from an A&E department.  It's understandable but frustrating.  I picked up my new orthotics and had a bit of extra treatment for my Plantar Fasciitis - my podiatrist stuck his thumb into the gristle in my arch and gave it a "kicking" - very pleasant, not!
On Saturday I went for a 4.2km run to test out the new orthotics.  They certainly gave me additional support and I wasn't in any pain while I ran.  I was aware of a small amount of discomfort on the top of my foot but later on the PF started to ache.  The new orthotics are to sort the problem on the top of my foot (Lisfranc mid-foot injury) and it seemed ok so that's progress.  I'm meeting my physio on Tuesday to see if we can sort the PF out because it's starting to really piss me off.
I met with my coach and she is in a similar position to me on going back to the beginning on training and building it up so hopefully we will get some running in together - I'm avoiding my club mates because they are coming into their peak fitness and don't need someone to hold them back.
As a result I have reset my goals for the season based around getting healthy and fit.  I am ignoring the race schedule as each one I have to drop out of, 3 so far this year, just makes me feel crap.  Get the foot sorted and building my fitness and strength back is my priority.  This will help silence the chimp in my head who has plenty of material to work with at the moment.
In the meantime my ATHelite club mates went out in horrendous conditions today to complete the Standard & Mid distance triathlon.  Freezing cold water, howling wind and rain  on a tough bike course.  Sound horrible but I wish I was there.  Well done to everyone who braved the conditions.  It will sent you up nicely for the rest of the season.  Enjoy your training and I'll see you at a start line next year. I 've got a lot of work to do.